your greatest mistake.

wassuppppp

2011-06-19T06:45:00.000-07:00

because life has to move on. will be on the right track again, stay tune readers.
xoxo, you know you love me.

remedy of love

2011-06-01T19:52:00.000-07:00

because i know they are my pillar of strength. ain't no other can ever replace the 4 of them <3
anddd so i've been working my ass out every single day while adri is busy locking her ass in her room the whole day only wakes up when it's noon *zzzz* on the other hand, my prettyboy has made a remarkable improvement in his studies and i am so glad and proud of him. keep up the good work silly boy! the yes of course my lovebird dating couple lolla and sidiq. i just loveeeeee them so effing much. without their endless advice and motivation i would have prolly jump off the cliff giving up hopes. prettyboy and myself had so much hiccups in btw and trust me we went through ALOT of bullshits that almost got us killed and having him ranting over small little things. that's the thing about us, we and our stupid ego and so we had a good talk yesterday privately (LOL HABES) i'm pretty sure he can change if he set his goals straight and work towards it. it's time to be a man baby. xoxo

the truth unfold.

2011-05-29T21:53:00.000-07:00

because you choose to lie over and over again, how can i bring myself to trust you? sometimes, the torture i've carried with me throughout the entire relationship makes me weaker, but then again giving up is not an option in my dictionary. only you brings the weather to my life.

i swear to god taylor's voice is so annoying and it's been playing non stop at istean, i kind be drown of insomnia pretty soon while MAC's playing rolling deep, ahhh way better! anyways, prettyboy has finally shifted house so which means less burden for him on the other hand i seriously can't wait for daddy to find a temporary place to rent out so that i was leave the current place i am staying in cause it's as though am staying in hell. LOL. alias and adri's bday is coming up and im so excited cause theres tons of plans need to be made and MORE KE-CHING! KE-CHING used. lol, i think juggling two jobs seems pretty good. how brown cow?

my say.

2011-05-26T04:57:00.000-07:00

because action speaks louder than words. no doubt you've changed for the better only god knows how content i am with your remarkable improvement. but honey, i don't buy words cause they don't hit me right in the brain. i need actions to prove me that i really mean something special in your life and my presence is important. they said money can't buy happiness which i strongly agree i wasn't expecting much enough from you right from the start. likewise, if you could make me believe that my stay forever with you is worth then that shall leave me with no doubts. it takes time, saying "i love you" is not a like singing a nursery rhyme. unless what you say comes from your heart, then it's worth saying it.

ps : dear passerby, there's tons of dude out there who called themselves prettyboy. it's not the right time to reveal anything yet. patience is virtue honey.

daily dosage.

2011-05-23T03:33:00.000-07:00

because life is unpredictable that's why plans we made are meant to be amend. apparently, i had one of my best Sunday(s) ever since months ago. while little akid came and fetch with his dearest daddy and prettyboy. isn't he so adorable until you just feel like poking those cheeks and bite them till they turn ugly? OKAY WHATEVER NANIS. anywhos, i've been spending my time wisely with those two girls up there, they've been giving me their endless strengths and motivation to keep up with my life. it's been crumbling lately i've been ranting over small little things and i know it isn't a good habit to keep unless i really wanna stay single all my life *zzzz* nonetheless, my life seems pretty far fetch from what i have expected. like seriously. i love my job yet i still want to enroll for some private dance classes to keep myself busy and FIT (nyehehe) which means goodbye to leisure times.

i'm at work currently and today's sales is so bad that i can even go get myself a cup of bubble tea at far east plaza and leave the counter empty! -.- *double zzzz*

smoke machine

2011-05-21T20:37:00.000-07:00

because they said a puff leads to a stick. they've been talking weird all around me. how can someone like me who hates the smell of cigarettes smoke? people changed from time to time, from good to better. could it be because of my condition i am slowly forgetting things? what if one day i were to wake up and not recalling my own name? oh wells, god's testing me.

on a (so not) lighter note, i have much plans up my sleeves which means more $$$ will be used. on the other hand, my bday is aging near and trust me i have no nuts what to do about it. should i hope for someone to give me a surprise? (FAT HOPE MUCH?) or should i stick to the roof top at club hotel? i've yet to make my way there though. shall be meeting the girls this evening with sidiq and adorableeeeeee-ly cute akid baby! i miss him so much.

cross and circles.

walk a mile in my shoes.

2011-05-21T20:08:00.000-07:00

because it doesn't really matters how long we've been through. you may be the best i've ever been with but what's done can't be undone. what's the point of reminiscing the past when i've totally move on. Chuck and Blair is all you can talk about to make me stay? apologising millions of times won't make it any better because the mistake is still there. no doubts everyone makes mistakes. but they are not meant to be repeated unlike you did.

you've been on my mind i shall not deny that but deep down inside i know want i really am yearning for.

someone like you

2011-05-20T09:41:00.000-07:00

because sometimes i couldn't bring myself to trust you. like the wind, you come and go. like the thunder, your anger strikes out from no where. i did my homework, i sat down and asked what actually went wrong, which part of you did i forgot to read but then i realize it was you. the only person who could help you was you yourself. i did my part, sometimes i even forget to love myself. may the forces be with you my love <3

memories are meant to be kept.

2011-05-20T09:33:00.000-07:00

because school has been a bitch this semester. oh wait, b i t c h as in dope i supposed? it's been a tough ride that it almost drain me inside out. time flies and so here comes end of year one. the endless gossip session and drama world of ED1s. well, hello now year 2. come out come out where ever you are <3 happy holidays mates!

my happy boy turns 23.

2011-05-20T09:17:00.000-07:00

because i choose to be the first to hold on a surprised bday celebration for him. the effort spent, the sweat i went through, the troubled to run errands and the price i paid it was all worth it. planting a smile on someone's face sure pays a big deed.
thank you all so much for making it happened <3

b a c k to reality.

2011-04-02T22:11:00.000-07:00

because 2010 was a struggle, so here i am building up pieces of me again.

well hello world, i'm your wild girl. 2011 has been a pick up faith for me, things are looking good. more up coming dramas are up in school. so we shall see who's up next to be their target. didn't i warn you? i've made the good girls gone bad.

love.

it's been a year or so without a man by my side. as much as i am content, patience is running out in me. oh wait, the one with good future? yes certainly welcome dude ;)

cross and circles.